Living is an uncomfortable event

Over the years, I’ve used a lot of coping strategies to deal with the discomfort of being alive. Running and working really hard are two that come to mind. Meditation, alcohol, pot, extreme athleticism outdoors in the mountains and on the rock are others. Being in drama with or about someone else is a more subtle escape (hint: presidential election). Being in drama with myself.

But in the end, I’m left with the fact that living is an uncomfortable event.

So I’ve taken on a process for myself: lean into the discomfort. Instead of grasping for the illusion of happy, got it all together, getting numb or sticking my nose into your business, I’m exploring what it’s like to just hang out raw and vulnerable on my leading edge of being alive.

What’s that meme? “Shit just got real up in here.”

Instead of trying to fix myself, get better, or get more … instead of distracting myself or getting numb … I’m hanging out in the feeling of uncomfortable, not sure and whatever emotions come up, as they come up.

And I might even tell the truth about it, to myself and to others, as I am feeling it.

Your dream is your dream

Your dream is your dream, you can’t escape it. Either your living it, struggling with it or stuffing it back down. But either way, your dream is going to keep clawing its way out of you.

Actually, your dream isn’t yours. Passion is a spiritual force. All that talk about free will is misleading. You are here on this planet to be a conduit, an agent, for the passion to express itself through you.

Desire is “of the sire”. It is the will of a higher power moving through you.

Your only “choice” is to go with the flow of the passion running through you or to resist it. But either way, that river continues to move downstream.

Having spent most of my life learning to get “stronger” and safer, it’s still a little weird learning how to open up and become more emotionally exposed and vulnerable.

I call it a posture of defenselessness. Giving up the idea that there is anything to defend. As I have found, all of my defenses were ultimately forms of attack. Keeping people away. Being right. Winning.

It’s counter intuitive and counter culture. It goes against most everything the mainstream culture seems to teach. But while being defensive might be “strong” it’s not powerful. Being defensive is numb. Being defensive is half dead.

Defenselessness … raw, open and vulnerable … now that is the doorway into true power. That is the path of the awakened warrior.

The people on the field are playing the game.
The people in the stands are talking about the game.
Talking is never playing.
And the talking has no impact on the field.

Heaven on earth

There are only two kinds of prayers: a prayer for heaven on earth and a prayer for hell on earth.
When someone is praying, however they do to whomever they do, the content of their prayer doesn’t reveal the kind of prayer that it is. Rather where the prayer comes from, where it is sourced from, determines the kind of prayer that it is.
“Dear powers that be, please give me money.” That’s a typical prayer, right? This type of prayer is sourced in “I don’t have money” or “I don’t have access to money” or maybe “money is difficult.” In this example, the prayer is about “hey powers that be, there is scarcity down here in my world.” So, it’s a prayer sourced in a vision of hell on earth.
Same with relationships. “Powers that be, please bring me a loving relationship.” That kind of prayer comes from a world in which there are no loving relationships to be had.
It’s like asking for rain while believing with all your heart that there is no rain to be found.
It’s also quite popular for people who are not much for prayer in the first place to give it a go when they are sick. Like, why not, right?
Maybe getting sick and dying is healthy and natural. Just saying. Seems like it’s at least normal and guaranteed.
U.S. presidential election. You be the judge. Is that sourced in a vision of heaven on earth or a vision of hell on earth?
On the street, prayer is about “what can I get?” It’s about “hey, I need a special deal here.”
But what if, at a higher level of understanding, prayer is really about “what can I give?”
In our men’s group, we sometimes talk about a man standing in his masculinity like a man standing in his kingship planting a flag in the ground stating that “this shall be so!” It’s a declaration. A promise. A speaking of the word.
What if prayer is really a speaking of the word between you and the powers that be?
What is the word that you are speaking?
What is the flag that you are planting in the earth today?
Right now, in this moment, are you invoking heaven on earth or are you a stand for hell on earth?

When I was younger, I wanted to change the world.
I must be older now.
More and more, I find that my work is to accept the world exactly the way that it is.
And isn’t.
The American dream promises that there is somewhere to go and something to do.
But there isn’t.
We are already there and it’s already as good as it’s going to get.
There is deep wisdom in accepting the fact that this is how it all turned out. That’s what I call personal freedom. Allowing this world to be exactly the way that it is.
Because it is.

Playing with the the idea that to be “spiritual” is to be in my body.
The last 500 years of philosophical thought has slowly pulled us out of feeling our feelings and being deeply connected to everything into the disease of “the separation” of thoughts.
You know, René Descartes’ “I think, therefore I am”.
More and more, I like the idea that there are two worlds: the world of the dead which is lived inside of your head and the real world which is lived inside of your animal body.
“God is out there.” “Other people are out there.” “I am over here and separate.” This is the myth of “the separation” that, somehow, religion also promotes.
But, actually, God is in here. I am God. You are God.
There was a time, not very long ago, when you could get legally killed for saying that. You know, the truth.
Like the quantum physicist said, “there is no out there, out there.”

Teddy Herzog received his training and certification as an Integrative Holistic Coach through the Legacy Training Institute. The 6-month program requires the completion of five weekend Legacy Seminars with a minimum of 1500 coaching hours.


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